heyhey, its been another few days. went to sch today for open house. was not bad. choir improved!. spoke to vanessa today and it was quite great. long time dint talk to her. a week seems long man.
u know what? sometimes, we should not think too much.
like when wehave the things around us we tend not to appreciate. this is bad i know. but i tend to be irritated sometimes.

well, i try not to anymore.
so sry ppl. (:

i dont want to be a person i am not. (:

heyhey, today is thursday (:

listening to i see the light by dj hixxy. damn great remix of the original one. this cd is on hardcore till i die. i really should get it but dont see it selling anywhere. neither do i see clubland cds being sold. maybe its a uk thing? but its damn great. better than any speed up cds. this is extreme. like angel eyes by hixxy too. its good. youtube has it but the prob with it its that i cant be downloaded. :(
was reading the book called TRASHED, by alison gaylin. her first two books were not as good as this. even lee child said so. must check out harlen coben man.

this is ultra cool. weird thing the cds hav some weirdsongs. like clubland14, it wasnt as good as 13. the xtreme hardcore was better. the webb has the list of songs but it all depends whether we can log on to download it. Or not. :) love those remixes.


your's techno-ing,
CHELLEST

JACK REACHER!!!!! this is madness.
Lee child's killing floor: Cut his throat. You dont do it with one elegant swipe. Not like in the movies. No knife is sharp enough for that. There's all kinds of tough gristle in the human throat. You have to saw back and forth with a lot of strength. Takes a while. But it works. By the time u have sawed down to the bone the guy is out dead.


Insanely cool.

Another patch:
I kept the blade as the weapon of my choice. Silent. But the shotgun would be better than the desert eagle( another monster gun) as a backup. With a Mag-10 ( Ithaca Mag-10, super large gun) as long as its pointed vaguely in the right direction, you're going to score.

man, i wish i had one of that. (:

Jack reacher is the most cool guy besides John Rain, *(Fujiwara-Junichi. ) my dear assassin. i got his picture in my phone., as my screensaver. (: like the survellience techniques, he's damn good at it. i love the diversion techniques, the opening of the left car door but leaving but the right to con those hispanic guys. omg thats so cool. i doubt i'll ever meet anyone like this in my entire life.

your's truely.
Chellest !( JACK REACHER!!!)

heyhey! its been a long time. (:
what shall we do today? rest. i guess. walked too much yesterday already. learnt something new that day. and the days before. like when i went out with friends, its definitely good to get someone like-minded that likes books and such. then when u start ogling at stationary or books they look at u as if ur mad. Ugh.

thats really so sad. please, when like u love that place so much and ur heading towards it, its not so nice to say derogatory things about that place. then it makes u think twice about ur decision.
another sad thing.

thats why its important to get like minded friends out who can establish a routine and not just tag along....

my dear jack reacher!! in my sims and in my bag. so cool. alex!! delaware, i just bought his book, compulsion and i saw BONES. OMG i wanted tht book so badly but it went against me on purpose.its $30!!

this is truely insane.
another tip for going out for long distances. dO NOT wear flats out. or heels. they dont work.-for me that is (: and dont get lost. i have to have a virtual map in my head or else my mum and i would get lost.

oh yes, i saw june and her mum at suntec yesterday. she looked so pretty.
and please, on the bus, friends out there, u realy think that cuddling virtual pets is cute and so sweet? ITs damn sick man. no offence. (:

but all in all, there are always things to learn when u go out. (: and guess what? i bought a damn shiny hp pouch. super nice. and ex.


gotta go,

your's truely,
CHELLEST.

today is 21-9-08. what a long time man. JACK REACHER! new ultra cool assassin.better than the average navy SEAL. hee.

dont feel very well now. sometimes when u try to get ppl to help u they just dont. I DONT UNDERSTAND. :( well. human beings are complex anyway.


-end of blog post!

towards rejuvination!

heyy! decided that i would type in orange today. ive got 3 minutes. today is a friday. 2 weeks of the jun e holidays have gone by
i never rmbered the june holidays going by so fast. this is madness. ugh.

let me tell you something interesting. try to multitask.

i believe this deserves to g o onto the blog.
today was bio spa day.
what a day. i cracked 2 capillary tubes and cut my hand, got 3 visking tubing and 2 strings. next
my calculator died. sin cos and tangent al canot press.
sigh
just because of this thats why i have to change the calculator? what a waste!
what to do. i think t his is the 4 th or 5 th one i have owned so far. oh yearh. my hand phone alreade gave up on me!
the sms function is not working.
HOT damn.
again.
if people know my mistakes in bio spa, then why do they keep harping on it ? hah
i dont want to complain but i cant help it.
so i decided enough was enough. each time they get together its like a damn hot furnace of hidden insults and derogatory terms. dont you feel it?
today was bad enough. what about their comments?
dont talk about mid yr and bring up all the corpses. but i dunt understand why they compare here and there and end up hurting feelings.

wel....benedict was quite sad today.
sad for him. hope he is okay.

coming back. when you are helping them and when they start to insult you in a way i dont think they know, then you';d feel quite sad and re luctant thinking : why am i putting in so mucheffort? its just not worth it.

reflecting again. you would reconsider and forgve them. thats what i always do.
cant afford to harp n it. right?
then. hearing the chines e flowing words from the tv, i get that feeling of remorse.

now that its coming to 9 pm. and that im getting tiredd; i wonder if id just fade into my world of ficticious charactors . the real world is not for u to enjoy at all. with those shady actions her and there and whn en people get close to you and all. this is ba d and irri ta ting.



hey alex. just wish you were here x)
Yours truly,,
chellest- like the broken glass

Heyy friends,
thought that is was time that i changed that depressing skin of mine.now is white and more positive right?
hehe dont bother looking at the last two posts that i posted. not really important. just no-sense thing. not worth listening to.

i must remind myself
not to cconstantly complain . life is much better with out it.
like how he keeps saying.
i can do it
right
.


at least somebody or people say that. at least in sch:) many people are out ther playing and im not one of the people in their group. but thats okay.
i can do it in other ways. dont worry .

like how i can imagine people walking down the streets. walking on the same path. gazing into each others eyes and smiling.
some people have the luxury to do that,
i dont think i need to . right alex?

my mother askd me if i wanted to marry you. guess what i said.
no thanks-you were not responsible enough,

speaking about you in past tense seems as though you are not there. but how real can you get?
again. people like us get disappointed. right jack?

people make mistakes- LIKE YOU AND VIOLETA AND MICHLELE that singer.
you do regret it. alex, rmb the time in flesh and blood- robin was jealous of that girl. saying you were to seduce her.

well. another mistake made. im supposed to be doing my english. right.
i guess i make mistakes too.
like how i scream and shout when im fed up.
i dont think they do that.
what we can expect of both of them is that they can go on with haarrneeymooning. SHOULD WE BOTHEr alex and jack??

lets ask the navy seals. they said not to bother.
actually, u know what i am really talking about?
i really dont like what they are doing.
seeing all those perfect couples in the world would just make you wallow in your sorrows and its just adding salt to the wound. do the wounds just multiply themselves?
i dunno. guess it just did.

mum said that it was correct and perfectly healthy and normal not to make you r male friend relationships in to a love one.

she is a superbly experienced person and i will never doubt her on this.
looking at the amount of controverseuy ( dunno how to spell) and resentment it creates. just tell them to stop it.
right in their face.

with that kind of disgusting things going on.
whos not going to bother.?! even if alex, you say that life is better ignoring them? YOUR So optimistic. jack? sigh. i have you on my table. so what to do?

rantings got to end somewhere.
let it go. . resentment is not going anywher.
POUND POUND POUND....... pound those feelings away.,
this new blogs purpose is just for the above line.
thank you for ur rapt attention.

i dont like this.
its every time in the holidays and i am disappointed yet again. asking me to go out with her and then she herself cant go?

sigh. i know that life is not all fair but at least if i can pay a visit to my dearest alexander and my anbc shop, i would feel abit better. all work and no fun? fun yeah. but i had some ....

mum says its peer pressure. everybody going out and all. father agreed to bring me out tomoro but how credible is he in the first place? heee
that oine i cannt voush for.

so many hitches and disappointments . like some friends i know getting a boyfriend helps them solve th8is horrible problem.

is it a problem or what?
more of a time waster. wasting more and more time, getting yourself into unnecessary trouble . waht a hasssle. i really dislike this kind of situation and its like the whole troupe of people marching together if we go but then thats why i dont like it. moments cannot be forced.

perhaps i just should drown in my world of combined humanities.

?heyy, its a long time since i posted this. writing in yellow now. Last post was what? December? Cool huh. but again. its not so cool now. so demoralised.

this year has been hard so far. usually i dont talk feelings on blogs. but well, i feel like breaking the rule now. XD

this exam has not been a total success but has for me a total failure. if im comparing.. IM always comparing. when am i not? to the past years. i think i rather go live in a mountain.
go hide away.

chinese exam in coming and i amhere posting. Vanessa probably has heard this A THOUSAND times from me in one variation or another. haha. sad case. she's probably the person who knows me quite a lot given being in choir and all. well i dont claim to be her confidante too!

like friends in this class. theyre quite nice. but sometimes because i find that there is an invisible wall that is hard to break through even if u stare into their eyes.
sigh life's like that.

im begining to sound like " DEPRESSIon " itself. well, dont u think i need alex delaware, my fav psych? you know what? his latest appearance is in compulsion. sigh. so nice.

changing the topic, i understand now why humans are the most complex beings. so totally astract and unpredictable. and they can influence each other . like how i see people getting the " magnetic INFLUX" by each other and sounding like each other. what a joke!

by the way, im not a fan of the word Jia you.
this is probably the coolest entry i had all along.

well, thats all. DEAR ALEX!!! when wil you appear?

...you will take my breath away.( ENG compre !)
.. yours truly,,

CHEllest.
towards Re-moralisation.

heyya. november's coming to a close. will you miss it?
I will. had a cousin over to my house today. hmmm. quite an interesting day i had today.
you know, sometimes, its just not fun to have people that are not really apreciative of what u have done for them. especially when u have gone tthru so much trouble to help accomodate them early in the morning. it "rocks" when u are awoken at 8.03 in the morning by a phone call.right. trying hard to sleep and there. ta daa. im awoken.just like that.

perhaps its just insecurity or what, i dunno, but its not nice to not give face to ur hosts by saying -ve things or feedback to what their actions are. all are +ve so far.havent done anything to mistreat. just dunno them. sometimes its fun when u just forget al the dicipline issues but its another thing altogether when they act up and say all sorts of things a- listers say. its not nice to brag to another ur kind.
imagine ur friend acting up infront of u . like la a lister. "COOL huh?"


all in all, its been a great eye opener, the best thing is,
we learn how to beter appreaciate the people around us, as they are nice for what they are. :)

heyyeah. im back. this time, with a new theorem.

The new emily theorem. Never ever play during any serious lessons or sessions. Especially hand games. Like CHI KO PA .It can really make u upset. sigh. was quite upset today. some people are like whatever when it comes to scoldings or feedback, but not me.
If u are in exco, u have reput. to maintain, whatever it is.So we have no choice but to be serious all the time. the most we can lighten up when during breaks or after choir sessions. But like Miss lim said, you are being watched all the time. Its really like " Always watching you" choir exco should start up a book on " being watched". Its really no fun, if u get what i mean.

even though u have finished a certain projj, it really is not finished, not like ymca's youth for causes, where finished-lets go. that kind of thing. We have to do follow ups . nOT fun. &there are always some members who are not always a piece of cake for u to handle. thats when we have to put on our thinking cap. ? any suggestions?

( im hearing jojo barking.right outside my house. tomoro he'll be gone. im tearing apart.)

lets put it this way: as sarah dessen says" LETS GET LOST"
but in reality, our job will never be done.

... so friends, let just do what we can.

Just do it. Nike.

hey ya. so the holiday has started. been quite busy with choir andschool business.
was at my neighbours yesterday and played with their dog.
I did nt like the dog at first, was very afraid of it. its partly due to the lack of xposure to animals all along. my brother was damn funny. he was more afraid of the animal than i was. when He himself opened the door to let the dog, JOJO, out he shouted and ran away. gues whhere he landed up? ontop of a dining chair. Was too hilarious. Joker.
I, couldnt do anything but to .. stand rooted to the spot, while the dog pawed away..
Slowly, he and I opened our hearts to the dog by playing withhim Fetch! as well as soccer with his favourite ball. I always hated this dog. The same dog that had been barking through the night, till 12 midnight, the same dog that had barked so fiercely at us when we were visiting, the same dog that was whining when locked up.
What i felt towards the dog after we left the house was in total contrast to what i initially felt.
while playing, the dog looked at me with those huge, brown eyes, begging me to play with him, to tickle him, to talk to him.
It really opened up a side of me to animals i had never thought i had.

After i left, i experienced a funny feeling. I actually missed that damned dog.
never had i thought i would miss an animal. It was so unexpected.
Though that dog may be leaving for good to another owner, on thursday, its beautiful face and glossy coat will forever be captured in my phone.

GOOD BYE JOJO!

heyy. Totally knackered today, sick like the devil and wished that my throat could be lined with some anti- infected lining. Not funny; having the flu. Its almost equivalent to having the SARS, dont u agree.
poor brother. went for mini-op, regarding the tongue. suffering like hell, but what is life without suffering? good that he has a higher pain threshold than i have. or not i'd be hearing a million complaints a second. (im good at that).
i've successfully kept this blog for 50 posts already, no thoughts of deleting it.
great job.

gotta jet
Chellest.

Heyya.
Its been another fruitful year of work and play.
Have u enjoyed it?
I have. The school term have officially come to a close, but school is never over for any one of us. Not our junoirs, seniors or teachers.
When ever do we get actual holiday?

In a nutshell, this year has been a rather interesting year.
I participated in SYF, Chem comp ( loved it), RMUN, Shanghai Exchange.
Had fond memories for each of them, never wil want for forget it. Chem comp was especially an eye opener, working with the 3 of them, never wil forget the rush and nervousness that we felt during the comp, the rush to complete the website and the nervousness to remember all our lines.
SYf was a great time for bonding between our members. It made us feel as though we were in the same boat, climbing the SAME BIG ROCK ( cough!*, courtesy to Mr liu), and nontheless made us feel more united. However, some unexplainable forces are pulling us apart and it is up to each and every one of us to get rid of that unholy force.

RMUN. whew, that was a really big challenge. we're like being thrown into the open sea, not knowing ANYTHING about it at all. went there like a huge DODO, but didnt feel that out of place, made some interesting friends of good character. Good thing was, we learnt that the best thing, to get the most out of this modules, especially when u have paid 50 bucks for it, is to attend every day of the session. I hate chickening out.

Shanghai exchange.. was rather less exciting as there was much logistics we had to do. Spoils the fun u know. Made some good in chinese friends down there, glad to have some overseas students i made friends with. spices up life.

gotta jet,
your;s truly
Chellest!

heyyyya. its going to be the end of school; we're just a week away. how far is that? is that real? ha. how interesting. its been almost one year,yet i feel that its just a couple of months. time really flies. not good. not. good. that means.. we;re going to sec4.
today... and the whole year has been fun. interesting.. I got to know few interesting personalities, from classmates of course. competitive, i got to agree, no less, no discount.
friendly, ... but again, how friendly can u get in3E6?
think again.

actually, quite happy i landed in this class. grateful for that. of course there are frictions, but ... again, in which class is there not any friction present?

TODAY: was an interesting day.
got a mark deducted cuz i spaced 3 spacing for chinese., supposed to be 2.
last year was 2 marks for 2 brackets. maths.
2 marks for not rejecting (NA) maths.

we did a cute imitation of JUMP IN! . we did the jumping of course. classmates were spontaneous.liked their attitude. we should have taken photos though. we had the unexpected guest of honour, Mrs v. interesting huh.



necks aching, gotta jet.
Your's truly.


CHellest!

heyy.
finished reading snowfall. its a really nice book. dated back to the victorian times.the book is sad, as charlotte, the main girl character runs away from her own home, and lives with friends she'd made on a hiking trip. her brother BEN, is reaallly nice. Ben champion to be exact.

u know fashionista-laura by sarah manning, its on my couch. the other book by her, the one " lets get lost" is nice. nicer than the book " good girls" by laura ruby.i found thebook quite empty as in not much feelings. hmmm. its an insight though.

its been a long time since i last posted. guess that'll be.
gotta jet. comps dying,

Yours truly,
chellest!

its the holidays!! Finally.
8.25 and fatigue is finally setting in. i tire easily.

To all dear 3e6 friends:
Assignment 3 for Trigo assignment is non-existent in the notes. It is on the teachers table, for those who may not know that Hui Lak had given it out. (Even i didnt know, well..) Its okay. Mdm ong said she will try to send the assignment thru SMS. Please spread the message!

For the chemistry assignment, there is something wrong with the supposedly good-tech server. It seems that the chem assignments cannot be downloaded. Miz Seah is doing someting about it. RIGHT. shouldnt it be bad tech for now? X)


To all choir friends:
The CIP is changed to friday,time not confirmed. As we are not allowed back to school for the 1st 3 days, cca wil have to "stand down". Good or what?

T0 the 75 guys on the list:
YOU ALL ROCK! til death and after that. X) dont worry, ther will be evenmore joining you guys soon. Go find christine feehan. she's your next idol. Onward!

Its teachers day. To all teachers: Enjoy your day while u can. its not every day that you get to enjoy.

HOT BOOK of the day: Inside girl, by J. Minter.
HOT SONG of the day: Without You, the beloved techno.

Gotta jet. time flies. birds fly.
DO YOU FLY?

The last thing any baby'd want, would be to have their sweets taken away from them. Same goes here.

Poem: [ acrimonioous] ps. it does not rhyme.

teachers, our model examples,
teaching us moral values,
dicipline, graciousness and integrity.

teachers,
matured, sensible and controlled.


is this the case?
I dont think so.

teachers- immature in thought,
who thought they could understand us.

good grief.

teachers who cross boundaries, does not UNDERSTAND us-
confiscating items, totally irrelevant.

teachers blowing things out of proportion.
thinking that they always correct,-
that students are always in the wrong.

teachers,
who think that they have all the control in the world.
as though they own us.

teachers, who always want us to understand THEM.
seeking our approval for lessons, and such.

reverse psychology or what?

Class of 3e6 'o7 sample photo XD.