?heyy, its a long time since i posted this. writing in yellow now. Last post was what? December? Cool huh. but again. its not so cool now. so demoralised.

this year has been hard so far. usually i dont talk feelings on blogs. but well, i feel like breaking the rule now. XD

this exam has not been a total success but has for me a total failure. if im comparing.. IM always comparing. when am i not? to the past years. i think i rather go live in a mountain.
go hide away.

chinese exam in coming and i amhere posting. Vanessa probably has heard this A THOUSAND times from me in one variation or another. haha. sad case. she's probably the person who knows me quite a lot given being in choir and all. well i dont claim to be her confidante too!

like friends in this class. theyre quite nice. but sometimes because i find that there is an invisible wall that is hard to break through even if u stare into their eyes.
sigh life's like that.

im begining to sound like " DEPRESSIon " itself. well, dont u think i need alex delaware, my fav psych? you know what? his latest appearance is in compulsion. sigh. so nice.

changing the topic, i understand now why humans are the most complex beings. so totally astract and unpredictable. and they can influence each other . like how i see people getting the " magnetic INFLUX" by each other and sounding like each other. what a joke!

by the way, im not a fan of the word Jia you.
this is probably the coolest entry i had all along.

well, thats all. DEAR ALEX!!! when wil you appear?

...you will take my breath away.( ENG compre !)
.. yours truly,,

CHEllest.
towards Re-moralisation.