hey hey Jack and alex!!! its the end of CNY. i loved the first day and enjoyed the second but there was a spoiler. really. like the middle ofit. like someppl gave others something that is not so nice viewed in front of everyone. especially when uhave that kind of edge. badbadbad.. listen!!! its I TOUCH THE SUN. love love love. alex and jack accompany me today? everytime i go to bed with a heavy <3.>

badbadbad
unhealthy
itmakesmerestless.
but what can i do?

"you will always hear me call" Will i ever? im not sure. " I TOUCH THE SUN" i feel like doing that. and spread the love of the suns rays to the people I SO VERY MUCH LOVE. trying to be sarcastic u know alex. u sure know. u would be asking why i am expresing myself this way. the predicted answer? "Feeling unhappy? " Haha. love u lots. really. im being sincere okay.

sure i am. thats why im blogging.i guess thats why i pretty much use blogger. together with house mixes. <3

i dont quite enjoy that feeling. "SHOW ME THE WAY" show me the way to lose that feeling?
badbadbad. i dont think anybody would really understand unless they have been marginalised that way. THATS EXACTLY HOW I FEEl. marginalized. i got that word out doctor. really. see?> im becoming like eric Doss. terriible.

" LEAVE YESTERDAY BEHIND." can i? like how people say sleep does it. Does it do , doctor? i think the standard answer is " DO you think" but im not ur client doctor. u know me !! (:

" Light up my day. no more tears and im unbroken. " LOVE LOTS DOCTOR.

yours truly,
CHELLEST.

ps the song is flashlight by darren styles. <3

todays the first day of cny. !!! xing nian kuai le!! today i met some interesting and intruguing people. realy i didnt know i had them as cousins. or extended cousins. they like didnt talk to me for the last few cnys but it was different somehow this year. i know somethings wrong with my brain and ive been watching too many shuai guys on taiwanese dramas like the Jiro and those guys from fahrenheit. ....heheee. i know i must not. must not..... this is bad. bad.. the rising feeling of the bad!!! its coming to take me over!! mayb its the dark nails. haha. and the hair. i dunno. dont want to know either. (: gtg now. cant stay to say to much. ALEX AND JACK I KNOW UR THERE!! (: love lots. really. love ur thoughts alex, and the phrase about the candy land. the people are allowed to have a sweet life. DAMN GOOd. hit the nails right on the head. <3>

jack, see you soon.
love lots
YOURS TRULY,
CHELLEST. <3

hello friends!! here i am at 10. 41 pm writing. well. weird huh, but i just completed painting half my balcony, which is the size of what, two master bedrooms stacked up. damn large. (:
well, decided to remove the damaged nail polish. so pearly pink but what can i do anyway? haha. cuz of the white paint-base coat. and that door paint- banana yellow. (: going to let my nails see the light for awhile!! hello nails!!(: nice to meet you again.

hey hey alex and jack!! not seen you in quite some time already. actually not that true. i have seen you but just not spoken to you yet. not that u can respond just like that. but through the books i have ur response. feeling rather uptight now. that shoulders of mine. i bet u dont have shoulders that ache so easily right, jack? like u could carry bags of cement of that man that carries garden soil? and while u worked for the swimming pool company digging those? i bet u didnt break out in a sweat. that six five size of urs is sure useful!!! haha. you should join the tall club in america really. like i saw it on channel 70. home and health, this club is full of TALL people. like you. six five, six four. and even seven seven!! amazing right? (: but anything above 7 feet is not normal genetics. usually there is a problem with the pituitary gland. the blueberry thing at the base or near the hypothalamus? haha, it hangs just below the optic nerve. so when it swells, it would press again the optic nerve and thats when problems start to arise. but when the tumor grows on the pituitary gland, it would start producing lots of growth hormones. but also when u grow too large, the bones of ours would suffer. and our spine too. its crushing them. our heart would start straining to accomodate those extra parts and our organs would work overdrive too. thats when its bad. ..... but they said the normal height for women is about 5 four. so am i like below average?? sigh. i just need one more inch! (:


can u crack ur neck alex? i havent seen you do that before. real nice looking into ur past. really would like to know whats going on with that client of urs the Stacy Doss girl. dont quite like her. really. what if she starts... adoring you? i know thats slightly insane but u know, anythings possible. (:


yeah. some random stuff now. u know that show ISWAk. all initials, i like how that guy says SHUT UP to the people staring at his F class. (: its like Sse-art up. nice nice nice. (: hes JIRO by the way. im not those tou hao fans kind of thing but give the guy credit right? (:

yoyo. gtg now. (: blurry visions all mine. good night alex and jack!!! <3

yours truly,
CHELLEST!!
ps. i signed my brothers spelling book today (:

yo. to all the ravers out there. HIXXY is the best. (: for remixing that is. like the song game zaboocon. it rules. ultimate cute like pacman!! the song now that i found you is quite nice too. listening to it now. (:
like having a club going on in my head just that minused all the noisy people and drinks. alex and jack, u like club music too? i dont know actually. but junichi, i know u like jazz., like piano jazz Midori plays. u love her dont you? yeah i know. (: i think she would know that and not just forget you. dont worry.
i didnt know darren styles is like 30 plus years old. thats so old. ): his songs are like nice.but a bit emo. what i like is getting better. damn hardcore. like the beats are TOTALLY FAT. fat fat fat. hixxy gives a nice atmosphere. go youtube it. really. the atmosphere is like surround. and soothing. in a house mix way. nice nice. but there are some really weird songs.like some beatboxing at the background. i dont quite like those cuz the atmosphere is lost. yeah. i dont think rap is really fit for techno? but thats an opinion only (;
but throughout the clubland tunes, the common thing among them is that they have this steady beat. in the normal tunes. but for those xceptional ones, they have the varied background. then there comes this part when it starts to solo the background tune. REMIXED. uber cool. (: then its like so smoky. and i love remixes of the same song. like disturbia? i guess ive heard at least 15 of them. on piano included. i have tried it out actually. quite fun. try the piano cover. like playing over the song. its such a challenge and sometimes you try to hum along and the music loses you. so u lose the piano too!! hah so funny.
actualy many people dont like club tunes cuz i think its noisy to them and the atmosphere sounds like noise. but thats okay actually. i think ppl like my mum like music where there is no electronic beats and its not so structured. like theres room for expression. i think thats why ppl love other kind of music. (:
u know? those classical tunes like vivaldi- I LOVE!! its rather extreme. i know (; but thats weird cuz i play the piano. so its like both sides exposed. haha im raving at this age. i think i can open a club in my house with the collection of songs i have. jkjk. i dont have the $$ haha. (:
ive been trying to find the clubland xtreme hardcore 5 cd. but have failed repeatedly. i know if i go overseas i can probably find this. but like in that cd shop, hmv, sembawang- all dont have stocks of that. well. i think its probably marketed in the us or europe i guess. lucky them.
like i know most of the clubland tunes are MINT and choon. so like finding outside cds which are allegedly dance is futile. (: haha high standards clubland sets.

dont know what ill be doing tomorrow. mayb go onto the com and blog again? mayb ill switch subjects tomoro. talk about kimmidolls? haha. or pineapple tarts? since cny is coming.

omg
i love the smell of my brother. @#$ nice. the baby smell. mmm.

gtg now.
love lots,
CHELLEST!

heyy. i just bought 5 different nail polishes. LOVE THEM. Here's for doll&Logan. number two.

enter scene-Kimmi and Logan were on the sidewalk. Kimmi being slightly embarrased.

Kimmi was on her way to school and she was dressed in a Chloe sundress. She looks at her painted intense coral nails. She always does that when she is nervous. so Logan smiles up at her and asks if they should go to school together. (: man thats nice.

lets think fanatasy number one. lets try dinner. or something nice that we or lets say I dont have in singapore. choose the guy. Logan cresswell from, the a list. so. lets say he was my childhood friend. i sound like anna percy. this is baad.b ut anyhow! lets say logan bumps into the girl, Kimmi when she is walking to school. like face on bump. with his six-one frame and her 5.3 height, she collides into him. wow. so kimmi is embarrased with her cheeks staining red. she thinks-this must be embarrsing. but no. instead of lecturing her or swearing, gentleman Logan gives her a dashing smile and apologizes instead. double wow. (: man. this is like a scene in my head. haha. this inadvertently turned into a fantasy series. (: lets call it doll&Logan. since kimmi's last name is Doll and.. logan, logan. (:

let me eat one bite of my food first. havent had anything since 6 hrs ago. (: should we contnue the doll&Logan thing? or lets start with their friends.

continued-
logan looks down at the doll like girl infront of him. with hair cropped short, framing her heart shaped face, he gives a smile at her. she looks up. she takes a step back, as though being burned by him. Logan turns around. Looks at his friends, Seth and Jack. ( not jack reacher). they kept their distance from him, half wondering what he just had encountered.
Kimmi brushed off the hair covering her eyes. She looked at him and muttered " Sorry". Logan waved it off and offered his hand. " Logan. " He introduced himself with a smile. Shyly. She took it. He had callused hands, like from playing a sport long term, she noticed.
- End for now.

OMG. i can never ever do this!!! this is just too insane. like logan. where on earth would this kind of opportunity present themself infront of you? haha onyl in books. but u get ur heartbroken too. really. Kimmi would meet one challenge real soon. haha it definitely involves logan. (: how about they go on a trip together ? but all these looks too plastic. in reality people would just swear and push past you. (: what rubbish.


gtg now.
love, Chellest

feeling ultra fed up for dunno what reason. i think i didn t eat and i could not shop longer. like who would want to go out with me? like my mum is with those babies. and who i have to go out with?? this is sucky man. HORRIBLE. sry. ALEX AND JACK MAYB you could go out with me sometimes? im dead bored. and like stuck at home witht eh boring boring com? like duh. i rather go out and walk man.

heyya. this is morning that i am bloggin, im rather unhappy though. its like most of the times i am unhapy? why? alex!! do u have any idea why? jack too. i know i said something unsensitive agin. but this is like aways sucking. SORRY to the guy. what i meant wasnt what i meant saying it out. i know u rlife is very fufilled but i know it came out wrong. i dont like giving excuses. but anyhow (: sry again. i dont like feeling guilty. but thers no choice again. everytime i say something iin front of our friend here it like OFFENSIVE. so i guess i'll shut up always. never speak when in doubt of what the person would say. my motto. (: okay? yeah i guess whis shoud work unless questions are asked. later chinese new year later somebody accuse me of showing off. im always receiving that. really. its said that never to show ur feelings in public but that can never happen. not to me anyway. like in sec3 how many times i have that face. come on luh.. (: i dont like dont like dont like.
im printing this in blue cuz it shouldt have been posted anyway. but anyhow., i have to tel u a&J. mayb i f i had hut my mouth it would hav been better. like leave the conversaton alone. !@#$%^& haha

i thought that the last post was too long already. A&J. i think its all bottled up anxiety. but i should make it go. or why not u alex? pscy and all. (: helpmeyeah. gogogogogo. canidoit?sureican. (: just like im soooo comfortable with it. u know what i mean. like they grouping and all. so our friend was gushing on meeting them and all. what if our friend does actually. so thats all? finished.? and forgotten about those years? man. this is super sad. like an ending like this. this is bad bad bad bad bad. wont think about this okay? (: yeah i wont. like get on with life? yeah
SO GET ON WITH IT. kimmi would support me? (: a&j would u too?go kimmi go. go snatch go. but people would say that our friends are not that. so why bother? i cant not bother really. this is like INNATE. cant ignore it.like the lost remote? i still cant get over it. nutnutnut. (: can imagine the jubilation on our friends faces when they cross.ay ay ay. there would be the trio. subbing me. a and J u can get what i mean. u like live in my face!! its okay. love u lots anyway.
gtg now.
YOURS TRULY,
EM. CHELLEST!

hey. im actually unsettled. a&J. how? this is insane again. what happens if i think our friends would like cross paths? this is unnerving. imagine the mixture. man!!! cannot. please help? today i met a french woman who was a psychologist. in the 190 bus. she was carrying loads of cold storage bags today. haha. she was quite nice actually. told my mum and i that she would actually give us her card but she had her hands full of stuff. she had french clients. so cool. i bet u could speak french JACK. alex i know u can speak latin. (: love lots.
yeah. back to the original talk. so. i actualy cannot do anything. this is like they are going to the same sch and i am not ther actually. well? alex. what u go there and use a bulldozer to force them apart? not so drastic i think. lets ask yoshi!!! My new kimmidoll. bought it from taka today. beside mac. in the gift shop. left a few. and i bought a kimmi wallet. Love!! get one for u too? just joking.
feeling tired. but like how? like if our friends do cross, then like our friend would GUSH with FERVOUR AND ENTHUSIASM. JUST HOW I LOVE IT. itryandtrytowalkaway...
GO MAN. REALLY HOW THIS WOULD WORK OUT. try try try. go go go. I FULLY SUPPORT YOU. andyouractions. surely collaborations would occur and i cant prevent this. its like out out out out out of my range totally.

heyhey. its after results and now is posting!!! WHOOOo.where am i going to go? (: aayyy.
listening to true believer, clubland14. its damn nice.and i just changed my blog skin to this stripy thing. i think easier is better. not so complicated and messy. im feeling rather messy now? (:
actually. no more friends for me! like we are going to everywhere different. how to meet anymore? ): so sad.
and like this is so bad. so unfriendly. FRIENDS!!!i think u know what i am talking about. this is SO UNDESERVED. i dont think i can forget this. not for a long long long long time. (: im sensitive u know? dont u get that after 2 years? like duh.
but its okay again. like ppl tell me that yeah paths wont be crossed again, but i dont quite believe in that and neither do i in love. haha that was random. (: it does have many flaws .. hee yeah. (: tomoros a school day. and i have to decide. thats on a nother separate topic. again. JACK AND ALEX!!!! love u lots. this love is different okaaay.

so how? are u glad? (: having accompanied me for 4 years. uve seen everything. really.
from choir to results. and after till now. still writing to u on my com. dont wry i wont forget you. i dont think u would do this to me right? (: JACK, i cant stand calling ur name reacher. its so unlike you. i love personal u know? ur bro is more fit to be reacher.. really. (: but anyhow u are as good. !!!! (: (: jack and alex i think u are sensitive people too right? jack is ultra sensitive. like knowing when ppl will have their next move. alex!! ur psy. so u can do it too. SIGH. thats why u are my friends!! jack, ur sitting on my shirt on the floor. (: ill read you after doing anna percy in the a list. okay? how bout that?
yeah another thing. like how ours do? so sad dont u think so? like doing 180. totally gone. as though the years werent there. i know. ur going to say i totally expected this. EM!!! u could have preempted this!! yeah, SRY. but like as usual. i dont doubt first u know. unlike both of you!! haha. teach me more yeah....(:
going to another school is...... like that. accompany me there would you? (: making friends should be hard for you. wth ur looks and all. what about me? how u think i would fare? (: tip me again yeah?
feeling slightly tired now. are you tired people??? (: poor jack . you always sleep on the floor. shall i put you in a slightly comfier place? like i know u forced them to give u mattresses during without fail and that girl holly jackson had it good. (: i dont really like her but i admit, she has guts. like having the father as the general am i right?

coming back to the troublesome issue. but wait. i bought damn ex chocs today.
of course not for me!!! i wont spend so much on eatables. mayb not now. for you ? maybe. but you probably can afford it by urslf. like DUHH. alex u like retired at 26. thats damn great. and u can run!! so unlike me. i think you'd probably call me unhealthy and drag me to run with you (: what about jack? aiya dont talk about him. junichi then. FUJIWARA!!!! i miss you. really. u can do pull ups on the door jam. eeeeeks. i cant. i think u d confiscate all the nice nice food and eat them urself!!!!!! alex u probably would feed it to blanche. i miss her too. (: ALEX I HAVE U IN MY HOUSE!!!!!!! omg i forgot. sry srysry. in dr. death? i hope i dont make u another deadline. haha. i just need fujiwara to complete!!! are u holding back?( haha part of lyrics. )

how people? now that john rain( aka fujiwara) is here. cheer me up would you? (: its not easy u know. like robin leaving you, alex. and whats that girl, jade something-jack and that isreali girl the spy i forgot her name. saddddd. u know. but its okaay. you heal right? ur guys. and im a guy too? or what? hee. hmmm. one day. we shall go to.... wheres good? rain- japan, alex- b.h., and reacher, around the world? since u dont stay anywhere? (; or why not u come over. thats good too. gg now

nights
LOVE LOTS.
EM.

guess what. i actually hate this smile smile thing blog skin. so un-me. (: so im going to change it.

heyya!, alex and jack! (: its 3rd jan already.
waiting for the hana kimi to load. its taking quite a while.....duh. like its youtube. and its on a saturday!!
guess what. im still going insane over the extraction doc. cant stand it. (: i did ext. on monday. and the best thing happened to me! well, only half i guess.
he was damn nice man. like so wen rou. so unlike me. hee. but what can i do?
wish i knew his name so i could facebook him. (: be my friend,, right right?
i think i want to be a dentist. when i grow up. (: but not all dentists are nice again.

alex! i still cant understand you. even the jokes u tell hav to be uncoded. insane.
jack! let me guess. what are u doing in nothing to lose? strolling along roads again? (: ur so unpredictable yet predictable. i know u hate that. mayb i shall be ur assistant one day? but that would definitely tie u down to responsibilities. ill be ur liability? that wont be too comfortable for u i guess. no im definite about that. even leon garber's house u dont want. what about ur mum;s house in paris? i guess joe sold it off. (: predictability yeah?
even if u didnt say, i could guess it outright. im of course no match for you. (: and i want it to stay that way.

u know ive been trying to find more of such books but it seems that when sch reopens for the babies i hav to stay home most of the time. like hibernating? u hibernate with me yeah?(:
but id like to go cycling. actually, ive not seen you riding a bike before. motorcycle also not. alex? what about you? cars, yes. especially those chevys or whats that ford thing. (: and blanche!!! ur dearest dog. hope i can meet her one day. and robin too. the only time i meet you is in sims. and that is not everyday okay. ur stuck in pleasantville, the most populated places ive been. and i see u and ur orange shirt quite some times when i go downtown too. you drink!! robins now robin traver, sry about that robin. cuz now shes back with you. (: thats good.

mitch bianchi- uve settled down already with claire, im glad for you. (: and u have a gay daughter. thats disgusting but sorry about that again. shes leesa and shes damn smart. like almost maxed out most of the bars. im sure shell make it great next time. u want me to buy u a helicopter in compensation? i have a helipad wating for you!!


heyhey guys, i gtg now. real sorry. but ill text you again via phone or com. be waiting? (: hope to meet you again, outside. lve u lots!!

yours truly,
CHELLEST!