Friday, July 19, 2013

im not going to bother talking to you.


because you clearly forgot about me.


who does that.

forget about time.

forgetting about something so important.

now you say that im this and im that.



why would i say these things, why not because you just forget about me.


how about i try doing it back to you and see how you feel.

see how you like feeling forgotten and with nobody to talk to when you need someone.
or knowing that youre waiting when the other person has cleanly forgotten about you.

see how that feels.

if you can hide stuff from me why not i have my own space too and instead of unloading it on you id do it the way i used to.

just me and nobody else.

clearly really, just taking me for granted.

dont really need the big things to be telling. the small things would do.



Thursday, July 18, 2013

Back here after so many months? 
What's the point of like saving so much time and trying to do as fast as you can while the other person can't be bothered to save time or to be early. How does that make you feel? It just makes you feel small and insignificant. Like why bother with people anyway. Since they're just going to let you down. Just do lab everyday la and be happy. 
But at the end of the day am I really going to be happy? Or am I happier alone? I really don't know. Maybe I'm really happier alone. When the whole romance thing fades off and reality sets in. Like the faults of the other person just clouds out everything else then I guess it's time to be alone? 
Why make the mistake of stepping into another ones house knowing that you'll never end up with that person? Why bother helping and saying all those things to help you to keep track of your time and be early but you don't even take an effort to. 
Previously you didn't want me to shut down. Now you seem like you don't mind me doing it. Why not I shut down on you and not say anything so you won't ever know and you wouldn't have to feel short changed or insignificant ever. When you get together with another person who actually doesn't mind you being late and paying games then I guess I'll be happy for you. Because I don't think that I'll ever be able to have that around. Another half an hour if we don't get this resolved if you don't bother coming up to talk to me I'm going home. Shut me out lor.