ARG. alex! help me out here.
now i have to submit a proposal for cp. like i have time to do it like that. i think i have to rush it out immediately after chinese exam. luckily not going bio olympaid if not i would have dieded by then.
sleepy and dizzy..
): and angry.

that woman is always pushing for this and that. and ALWAYS putting alot of pressure on us.
ok fine. i asked for it.
(:

alex alex alex. trying to think of questions and answer them myself. ----.-----
headache. today has been a rough day. found results interesting though.
dunno why all tht things have to clash and clump together.
argh.

no love from me today alex,,


just kidding. (:

alex, dunno whether what I'm thinking is right or not. ): feel confused. Just feeling like how ur mum ignores you for reasons you might not know. ): alone sitting on the bench facing the pond.. Waiting. Its nice and quiet but somehow u don't want to be left alone with ur thoughts. Its rather overwhelming. ): just to say hi alex, love lots.

hey alex!! I AM SO IRRITATED NOW.
I HAVE TO DO WR AND MY I AND R AND MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP. I HAVE SCHOOL TOMMOROW AND ON FRIDAY I HAVE TO DO MY I AND R. WHAT THE SHIT.


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate you alex.
(: i just wished some idiots will stop talking as though its their birthday and let me choose when the shit i want to go out and not fit ur DUMB schedule. as though u get 80 MARKS DAMN GOOD LIKE THAT. disgusting. COME HOME AND HAOLIAN. SAY PPL TRYING TO HELP U INSTEAD INSULT ME. 1@#$%@#$#@%#%@#%#@.
SAY put newspaper on the table with the birthdaycake
and i told him to shut up immediately.
insult me as though u damn good like that. i just wanted to like sing and cake and get it done and over with since i have NO time. so delay the damn outing lah.
like i did LAST YEAR. what the SHIT IS WRONG WITH THAT.
i hate hate hate hate hate YOU!!!

ugh alex.
i love u actually.
((:
i like that guy but found out that he was in a relationship. what the shit man.
(:


love, EMILY.

Heyyo alex! Guess where I am now? I am at the hawker centre drinking tao huay! Cool huh, free wireless. (: observations? A small round boy clad in a brought yellow tee sitting with his grandma and ordering drinks in hokkein, grannies out alone eating fried chicken and couples feeding each other. What a sunday morning. I see how the morning is so relaxed and un rushed even if you are in the marketplace. Here comes my food!

oh my god alex, I need to vent. Its early in the morning and I am rather upset. Going to have Pw later and that's the frustrating thing. I don't really look forward to it. U know, I made a mistake this morning by sending Omg, does she know we have Pw today to she! Like wth who does that right? But it was pure accident and knowing her cynical nature, I sent her another msg, saying, so Sry, do u know we're having Pw today? And she said I do know but u never told me the time and location. I know its my responsibility to do that but since u and I and not exactly bosom buddies anymore, then u could have asked me instead of waiting for me to get to you. Alex, u'd say that I should be the one and yeah, ur totally right. It slipped my mind until this morning. She could have asked jiang, and the rest too right? Yeah I'm defending myself... ): its just like u know there's hw but since u didn't come so u don't have to do or find out. Its the same attitude. Since she has her hou tai behind her so I guess she cannot swallow her pride and ask somebody, cuz this would mean admitting her ignorance. ugh, enough said. Love you alex, got to eat smth before I leave. (:

chellest.

yeah- as a continuation, I've seen quite a lot of changes this year, particularly to my friends . so alex, u know me best. (: have I made the right decision? I've seen such scenarios too many times over alr. you don't tell them something, it means uve broken their trust. But u can't expect them to tell u whatever thts going on cuz they're not obliged to. Anyway, your're just their tagalong right? my other friend-C and I have been waiting for u too long alr. We wait and push and push but nothing seems to be moving. either wait for them or out you go. So out we went. We didn't wait for them any more. So we won't have to wait, won't have to get an earful of their whines and their gossip. One simple event just broke up our relationship. I could see this coming, but it sucked to go through it
... Really. Wish u were there to shut their perverse lips. But u are not God and He should be doing that, not you. (: took some time to get used to it though. Rmb last time in pri6? With that childish going out and backstabbing? I don't want to go back there. I dug myself out and I don't want to go back in. Hmm. It takes a lot of courage to break away. Cuz u know they are loud, and there are 3 neutral parties which obviously will follow the loud ones. u know alex, I can blog till I don't feel like sleeping. Back to it. Yeah just as how a neutral sphere can be inducted, these ppl can also be swayed. I actually had quite a close friend. She was the friend I first went out with. I actually do know what we cannot really connect due to really diff backgrounds, but since she's okay, so I'm okay. I have nth against her, just a bit sad that she chose to go with them. Yeah she still talks to me but I know things will never be the same again. Like whatever they need, it will automatically be delivered to them in a single transaction. Well, its NOT like that for me. But yeah I realised more of myself after that. Stop believing that you are safe and secure with your friends who expect your every movement to be told to them. Its all just a smokescreen. It's fake and it will change you. I went out straight after papers for celebrations with them, started getting involved in birthday celebrations and gossiping like I never could. I never do all these. And why should I start doing it if I don't feel its right? Well, Values shouldn't be compromised because of friends. That is a rather hard lesson I learnt, Alex. U know that too huh? (: thanks for listening, love you.
yours truly,
chellest.

hey alex and jack, I owe you a long long long awaited apology. (: typing from my mobile. SORRY. ((((: today's been quite a day for me, having to attend the Pw workshop and having to present and ugh, the problems. Yeah. feel that I need ur advice Alex. I totally ignored you for the whole year. I know. No excuses. But what can u do if a pair does not want to break UP.?? This leaves you right in the middle and not knowing what to do. I have no idea why they love each other so much. They're underaged for goodness sake. Please tell me what to do? Mayb jack could do smth. ((: had my neck twitching just now. mayb I was too traumatIsed. So whatever. This is today. Having trouble with this device cuz it limits me to one page. ugh.